A Different Lifestyle

Things have changed .. quite abit.

Especially my lifestyle, considering that I'm so used to be independent.
Not to say I was very independent, but I never thought of including another person in my routines.

 

I admit, at times, it is very sweet.

And time seems to fly pass by very fast each time we spent time together.

To say that I am contented is an understatement.

 

I am happy. Very happy actually.

 

Till last Saturday, when I saw his back. Well, that was actually his brother.

But then again,

Though it wasn't him, but my heart stopped beating because he resembled him so so much.
After all, he is his brother.

 

I don't know what to feel.

 

I'm supposed to be happy. So why should I still care about him?
Why should I still be bothered about the shits that he put me through?

 

Right, because I still care.

 

And I feel so .. sorry. Sorry that I had to let him see this side of me.
Sorry that I still care about the other guy.
Sorry that I wasn't trully .. healed.

LilAngie
xoxo