Current status.

Hmm, there isn't much going on in my life, actually. 

Besides getting more assignments, its pretty much the same.

I'd say, there are major changes in my life now. Besides having the new addition, there are also .. subtraction. 

And I most definitely did not expect to lose one of the most important person in my life, right after someone new entered. 

She, of everyone else, was the first to leave me. 

I honestly didn't see that coming. 

I thought, she of all people, would support me through this. 

But no. She was the first to walk out of my life. And chose not to tell me anything. ANYTHING. 

She said our relationship changed, because I seem to behave in a different manner when he's around.

And we seem to talk about things that concerned only us, whenever we hang out together.

But didn't she realize, that she's been doing the exact same thing in the past?

Having those private conversations with her boyfriend right in front of me? Cuddle and kisses when I'm around? Conversing in a topic that I absolutely have no idea about? And yet I never questioned anything. For several years, this has been going on. But I could bear with it. 

Why can't she? 

Why can't you? 

Why is it you are the one who's always dissatisfied? 

Why didn't you think things from my perspective?

Why is it only YOUR opinion matters? 

I understand perfectly why you are angry at me. 

But I most definitely do not understand why is it you have to make such a harsh execution on me.

Do you really want to settle things and remain the friendship we have or you already decided to wipe me off your life entirely? 

Throughout the years, I stuck with you. All the time. 

Does it look like I will abandon you just because I started dating? 

Which part of my actions indicate that I wish to remove you off my life? 

Your words hurt me even more than what he did. 

Coming from my best friend, especially. 

Now I'm not even sure if I should call you that anymore. 

LilAngie

xoxo

A Different Lifestyle

Things have changed .. quite abit.

Especially my lifestyle, considering that I'm so used to be independent.
Not to say I was very independent, but I never thought of including another person in my routines.

 

I admit, at times, it is very sweet.

And time seems to fly pass by very fast each time we spent time together.

To say that I am contented is an understatement.

 

I am happy. Very happy actually.

 

Till last Saturday, when I saw his back. Well, that was actually his brother.

But then again,

Though it wasn't him, but my heart stopped beating because he resembled him so so much.
After all, he is his brother.

 

I don't know what to feel.

 

I'm supposed to be happy. So why should I still care about him?
Why should I still be bothered about the shits that he put me through?

 

Right, because I still care.

 

And I feel so .. sorry. Sorry that I had to let him see this side of me.
Sorry that I still care about the other guy.
Sorry that I wasn't trully .. healed.

LilAngie
xoxo

Drop dead exhausted.

I have never been this tired in my entire life.


I've only slept for approximately 5 hours average for the past 3 weeks.
And I'm telling you, I really don't like it.


Assignments pilling up, brainstorm for ideas, completed some, gets rejected, brainstorm again, gets rejected again, completed and handed up the assignment, new one comes in.

Literarily, tiring.

And I just  found out Sasuke's convocation is today.
Which means, he might be leaving Malaysia anytime from now.

Which also means, yesterday was probably the last time for me to see him.

LilAngie
xoxo

Emotions.

I always thought myself as a person who lacks of emotion.
Because I rarely express myself, literarily.
I rarely laugh or cry.
Sincerely.Unless I was really really feeling it.
Which of course, rarely happened.

But now,

I could laugh to my heart's content while watching PewDiePie movies.
I could cry my eyes out when I heard mom's admitted to the hospital.
I could feel really envious when I see pairs.
I could be really bold to the person that I dislike (not surprised actually)Not sure if having all these strong emotions is a good thing or a bad thing.


LilAngie
xoxo

Shopping, and beyond.

Password protected, again.

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LilAngie
xoxo

Dissatisfaction.

Another story that I wanted to share a long time ago, but I wasn't brave enough to name the people involved.

So yeah, its protected post, again.

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Typing it out made me felt better.
Somewhat.

LilAngie
xoxo

Definitely foe.

'Friends' who only find me when they have nobody else left in their list,

can go and dai.

kthxbye.

LilAngie
xoxo

Another three years of sunshine-ness.

Shyt.

I thought I wouldn't have to see any of the people that I disliked in my Foundation year in this coming three years of Degree.

Guess I was wrong.

The one who wanted to kill me - stuck in Foundation (I guess)
The one who only seeked me when she needs help - in another course
The most narcissistic and oh-so-want-to-be-model - has just enrolled into the same course.

Shiet. Shiet. Shiet.

LilAngie
xoxo

Password protected post. (Something New)

I liked how Wordpress has this password protected posts on their blogs.

So I Googled to see if I can do the same for Blogger.
And managed to find some HTML codes that can do so :)


The reason why I'm so pissed?

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LilAngie
xoxo

Friend or Foe?

I treasure friends who :

- Treats me as an equal

- Care for me as how they want me to do the same.

But not as much to the people who seeks for me after their needs are satisfied.

Nor people who only seeks for me when their need is something that I can give.

One simple word that describes these two types of 'friends' :

Selfish.

You know who you are.

LilAngie
xoxo

Wrath.

FGSJFSDFSJFSFSFJSFSKDFSJFSKFAOFVAVMVASFVJASFKA!

LilAngie
xoxo

Tuesday with nobody.

So I reached college by 9am when my class starts on 2pm. Had no choice because bro has to go to work by then. I stayed at FacetoFace till 11+ , hogging their WiFi while playing FW :3
And then the place was packed like crazy!

There's literarily no more seats left inside the restaurant.

I felt quite bad for hogging the WiFi AND a seat , so I changed place to the library.

Bout half an hour later, Yann calls and tells me our 2pm class (the ONE and only class for the day) is canceled. I was like , wth? So I came for nothing? And not to mention, I'll be going back home on 1opm today. HOW NICE.

And Yann decides to go Pyramid alone to get her stuffs. I said I didn't want to go coz since we're going again on Thursday, I could've saved an unnecessary trip.

I wasted some time by sending an email to DearNick and cleared my inbox.

And as time passes, I'm getting colder and colder. Of all the days, I chose to wear long sleeve today and leave my jacket. How smart of me. After shivering for another 30mins +-, I got out of the library to sit by the lake.

It sounds crazy , but it really is a nice spot there.

And then I found out that my Hotmail account was temporarily blocked. "Unusual activities going on with your account etc". I was like , wtf? I only sent ONE friggin email and deleted 5000+ junk mails! Wtf wtf wtf. Then spent another 2 hours trying to fix it. Sheesh.


Its just second day of college and its already a nightmare.


Oh and , no sign of Sasuke again.

LilAngie
xoxo

Random-ness.

Something I accidently found from my sister's bloggie.


Daniel lying down on my lap while drinking his mik in a cable car.


It was taken in Singapore.
A trip that I didn't exactly enjoyed , to be honest.


Don't believe me?
Look at my emo face hahaha.


I was definitely sulking :D

LilAngie
xoxo

My patience has its limits.

Mind you, its shorter than everyone elses's limits.
If you cross it, don't blame me when I'm mean.



And,
Showing your emo face does NOT work on me.
It only makes me even more irritated.

Grow up.

LilAngie
xoxo

Originality.

No. I do not think that copying is cool.

No matter how much you try to act like that particular someone, it does NOT make you any different. It only makes you look like you're trying so hard to be like her/him.
In other words, copycat.

The best personality is always from yourself.

Something that YOU thought of. Not pick from someone who originally looks cool.

Sorry to say, it irritates me when I see you act like someone else.
You don't look cool at all to me.


LilAngie
xoxo

A fact you should know by now.

You will always point fingers at others , saying they brought the problem to themselve. Or that they themselves got problem.

But when will you realize that YOU were the problem?

LilAngie
xoxo

The End.

Finally , its the end of my driving lessons!
Wahahahahahahahah!


I never ever want to go back to that horrible driving track.
Those people there are so grumpy and unfriendly.

Not all of them la but the ones that I happen to speak with are extra extra grumpy.
There's one that was like screaming all the idiotic bad words at me.

The only thing I liked about it is that I PASSED!
Thank God.


LilAngie
xoxo

Irony.

Humoring myself with plain white lies.
Haha.

I know the presence of the hole on the street but yet I still walk through it.
Knowing that I would ended up with injury in the end.

I can only imagine how I look like in the eyes of public.
Oh wait , I already knew.

LilAngie
xoxo

Unexpected

Just heard gossips from my mom and aunt.

Can't believe that my own grandfather would actually spread rumours about his own daughter commiting adultry.

What the hell right?

Thank God I went to Taylors instead of following them to Kampar.
If I was there, I don't know if I can control myself from zha-ing him.

He will never gain my respect from now onwards.

LilAngie
xoxo

Pissed!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I need to scream at someone.

I thought I wouldn't hate any other teacher more than my Form4 Moral teacher.
But today's incident has just proved me wrong.

Pn.S just barged into our class , kicking all of us out , insisting that SHE'LL use OUR class for HER students who's not even IN our class.

Okay nevermind. We found another class available.

AND THEN ,
She called me and Cass back , to CLEAN the mess that HER STUDENTS made in OUR class!
I tried reasoning , in the most inoffensive way , and she just gave me a "I don't care" glance and screamed "THIS IS YOUR CLASS! I DON'T CARE!" at my face.

AND AND AND ,
She said "I want a copy of your class key by this week. I want to check the cleanliness of your class anytime."
Backside.
Might as well you just say that you want a copy of our key so that you can invade our class anytime as you please.

This has just made it in my Worst Days of My Life list.

I need a hug. =(

LilAngie
xoxo