Hmm, there isn't much going on in my life, actually.
Besides getting more assignments, its pretty much the same.
I'd say, there are major changes in my life now. Besides having the new addition, there are also .. subtraction.
And I most definitely did not expect to lose one of the most important person in my life, right after someone new entered.
She, of everyone else, was the first to leave me.
I honestly didn't see that coming.
I thought, she of all people, would support me through this.
But no. She was the first to walk out of my life. And chose not to tell me anything. ANYTHING.
She said our relationship changed, because I seem to behave in a different manner when he's around.
And we seem to talk about things that concerned only us, whenever we hang out together.
But didn't she realize, that she's been doing the exact same thing in the past?
Having those private conversations with her boyfriend right in front of me? Cuddle and kisses when I'm around? Conversing in a topic that I absolutely have no idea about? And yet I never questioned anything. For several years, this has been going on. But I could bear with it.
Why can't she?
Why can't you?
Why is it you are the one who's always dissatisfied?
Why didn't you think things from my perspective?
Why is it only YOUR opinion matters?
I understand perfectly why you are angry at me.
But I most definitely do not understand why is it you have to make such a harsh execution on me.
Do you really want to settle things and remain the friendship we have or you already decided to wipe me off your life entirely?
Throughout the years, I stuck with you. All the time.
Does it look like I will abandon you just because I started dating?
Which part of my actions indicate that I wish to remove you off my life?
Your words hurt me even more than what he did.
Coming from my best friend, especially.
Now I'm not even sure if I should call you that anymore.
LilAngie
xoxo
